Feel Bad

Another long day tomorrow, and I'm still not done with packing and preparing. Oh nevermind, I have the urge to blog 1st. Haha.

Oh Chun Wee, welcome here. LOL.

Nevermind about feeling restless these few days, the point is, I feel bad these few days. The thing is that, I was pissed with someone for the wrong reason, even though the person meant well for me.

I still don't know what got into me for that moment, but whatever it is, I really do feel bad about it. But I figured out apologies won't be sufficient, I've to make sure nothing like this happens again.

Even if that person accepts my apology and forgives me, I'll make sure I cherish that person even more, and promises to keep that person happy to the best of my ability.

It's been 8 months, but many more to come.

Don't Worry

11 more days to the end of CLT course, which means it's been 8 days since the start of it. But somehow, these 11 days will be gone very soon.

First aid and CPR training today, and I'm still haunted by the dummy they used to train us. I mean, you have to push the dummy, breathe into it, blow into the mouth, and so on. It's not the haunting part, but it's the smell that I just can't get rid of.

Quite sad, HQ NCC doesn't allow us to stay in for this whole week because they're busy and occupied with Camp Pinnacle (which I went for last year). Nevermind, there's always next week. Haha.

Sorry folks, no pictures this time as I didn't bring a camera handphone for camp. But in any case, I'll just say that my hair is super short, I'm having an attack of pimples on my face (must be the unhygienic way of me wiping the sweat on my face with my dirty hands). In short, I look horrid.

But I didn't look good in the first place! Haha. Anyway, not many of you all will get to see me in these 19 days, so it doesn't matter.

As for my CLT course friend Chun Wee, well it's time you open up a 'lil, and stop worrying too much (just like me).

The back page of my notebook is full of your traces.

A Week Done

That's a week that's closing soon. Fast isn't it?

So the thing is, I didn't feel like myself for this whole week. The only feeling I have is when I take the bunch of medicine (overdose again), and the drowsiness settles in. Not tired, it's just drowsy.

Anyway, today marks the day that I quit that p_______ band of mine. Wait, not mine. Timothy's. I'm no longer a part of them anymore, and nope, I don't feel sad or anything. I'm not about to feel sad or regret, because this is a thoroughly thought-out decision, and I know I should have been done long time ago.

Nothing much else to write, have been very clueless of each day for the past week. It's like, "Oh, today's a Tuesday? Really???" and everyday basically feels the same. Lectures, tests, some physical training and nothing much else. Quite slack actually.

2 more weeks, see you soon.

2 Days Down

Haha I neaked out of camp to blog. Nah just kidding, I decided not to stay in camp for tonight. Just finished 2 days of CLT course. 17 more days to go.

Don't know what happened or what, but damnit, how unlucky I am to have gotten flu and fever after the 1st night of the course. It's like, my bunkmate (and friend too) brought his flu into the course, and spreaded to the rest of the bunk (one big bunk has only 4 people. How scary) and so all of us who shared the bunk with him are down with flu. Couple that with my sudden craziness to run and go "hiong", and I had a slight fever this morning.

That isn't the worse yet. I was caught for my hair 3 times in 1 day, I got so sick of it, I just went down to cut my hair. It's like, I've got no choice but to gel my fringe up.

So I guess that's all I'm going to post for today. Am so tired and sick of my flu.

Don't worry, 17 more days isn't that long. The period before End-of-Years was even longer. See you soon!

58th Cadet Officer Course

Will be going to Ang Moy Quee camp in a few hours time for my CLT course that will last for 19 days, so I suppose I'm not going to blog for the next 19 days or so.

Till we meet again, and see you soon. Take care everyone.

Help I'm Moulting

Great the schedule for that dearest 19 days are out. And I seriously don't look forward to wearing the NCC No. 4 uniform, given my current skin condition.

Let's see, here's some pictures of my skin.




No, that's not the surface of the Moon, that's my arm. And the skin is peeling off very badly, it's like, someone cling-wrapped me and now the plastic wrapper is coming off. It's even worse than my turtles (not mine actually, since they are all being automatically taken care of).

Then I'll have to vacuum the house every single day, because the skin is all over the place, in my bed, on my laptop, in the sutdy room, on my piano and so on. And it really looks plasticky, and it's actually transparent.

Alright enough of disgusting skin-peeling. Parents are going off for their holiday soon, so I'm going to be left alone for a few days. How wonderful, it's been their don't-know-how-many-times holiday since 21st March. But then again, it's not like I thoroughly enjoy holidays.

Somehow I do feel a 'lil bad for having such a packed holiday schedule, and not spending enough time with you.

How Bored Can I Be

This is how bored I can be.



Got so bored waiting for some glue to dry today, so went to basketball court to watch Gary play tennis. Then got so bored of watching and not doing anything, so attempted to climb up the monkey bar and sit on top, but somehow didn't managed to. So I hung upside down on the monkey bar while SMSing and looking at the tree.

Anyway, feel very bad today. I mean, yes I crashed the plane, it's horribly damaged, but Gary and I still managed to fix it back to normal again.

Nevertheless, I feel like, I've dampered the group's spirits, like suddenly I took away all their hopes, their optimism, their enthusiasm and so on. Crashing the plane damaged the plane physically, but that crash, seemed to damage our group mentally, and it's not easy to fix it back. Unlike the plane, people's spirits can't be fixed with masking tape...

Even though things are back to normal now, I think it's going to take awhile before we lift ourselves again. But let's just say, "IT AIN'T OVER 'TILL IT'S OVER!!!" Haha.

Looking forward to the main course, though it's not planned yet.